Will this house ever sell?!?!

Geez! I can't believe we are still here in NS. We had so hoped to be moved back to ON by now, or at least to have sold our house and working out the details of the big move... NOPE.

On Christmas Eve our realtor called to say that a couple wanted to come see our house on Dec 27th. We were so excited that this might be it for us. We thought that they must be pretty serious to want to go around and look at houses 2 days after Christmas.

So, B and I rushed around getting things perfect for the big viewing only to find out from our realtor that the people who came to see our house were never serious in the first place. Apparently, after she drove them all over town looking at houses they informed her that they had already decided they were going to buy a lot and build a new place. NICE!

Again, we have to hurry up & wait and hope that the New Year will bring us better luck and the right buyers for our lovely home.

Remembering My Angels

Today is the third anniversary of my first miscarriage.

Today is the second anniversary of the estimated due date of my second pregnancy which also ended in miscarriage.

Since my heartbreaking losses in 2003 and 2004 I have been blessed with two beautiful, healthy children. The babies I lost are never far from my thoughts. I think about the 2 little souls that I've lost all year long but December 23rd is a day that is especially hard...Christmas time is bittersweet for me.

I love you my little angels. xoxo

Geez, where has the time gone?

I cannot believe it's been over 2 months since I posted last. I keep meaning too but every time I sit down to do it something comes up!

Last time I checked in I was about to meet my new baby. The induction went amazingly well.

This is our Baby Girl's Birth Story

After getting J settled with a dear friend of ours we headed to the hospital. I was really nervous about being induced.

We arrived at 7:15am and by 7:30am I was in the delivery room getting the prostaglandin gel applied. I was 3cms dilated and had been contracting sporadically prior to that but nothing regular. My OB explained that the gel was to get things softer and I shouldn't expect to go into full blown labour with just the gel. He would be back at noon to break my water. So, B and I walked the halls of the maternity wing all morning long with little breaks every half hour to be hooked up to the monitor by our wonderful nurse Anne to check on baby. Baby was doing great but was still pretty high up and my contractions seemed to get a little stronger but still weren't in any kind of pattern.

At 12:30pm my OB returned to break my water. I was a little disappointed to hear that I was now 3 and a half cms dilated but everything was clear, baby was still doing great and we were told to keep walking. Within about an hour I started to contract regularly at about 5 mintues apart but I was still comfortable.

By 2pm the half hour intervals between monitor checks with the nurse seemed to be coming faster and faster. I was getting uncomfortable but still handling the contractions well.

At 3:30pm I must have looked like things were changing and I was so uncomfortable through the contractions when I was lying on the bed during that monitor check that the nurse decided to check me herself to see where I was at in terms of dilation. I was 7cms. I begged to get up and when she said that was fine I hopped off the bed.

Things progressed quickly from there. Within about 5 minutes I felt intense pressure. I ran to the bathroom to pee and when I came out I knew this was it - I just HAD to push! I could tell there was a sense of panic from B and the nurse too. She told me not to push that I couldn't be ready for that yet and to at least wait for the Dr. She ran out of the room to call my OB. She quickly returned with another nurse who both realized this was it for me and asked what I wanted to do (stand and wait or get on the bed) I didn't care I just wanted to push.

Soon the Dr arrived. He had a look and scrambled to his feet to get his gear on since the head was right there. There was no time to even break down the bed. I was told it was ok to push so I did with all my might. On the third push the Dr was encouraging me by saying "push, push" and suddenly he shouted "stop, stop!" - too late! the baby came flying out and was on the table faster than anyone expected.

It was incredible. I asked if it was a boy or girl. B had already whispered it in my ear twice apparently but I didn't hear him. The Dr held her up and said look for yourself but the umbilical cord was in the way and I couldn't really tell. Finally everyone said: "She's a GIRL!" B and I are truly tickled pink! Our little girl is as healthy as can be and so beautiful. She was born at 4:04pm and was 6lbs 12 oz and 21 inches tall and perfect in every way!

Her big brother is adjusting well to his new role. Today he did something that brought tears to my eyes. Baby L was napping in her swing (which was not swinging at the time) and her blanket slipped off her lap. I was busy folding clothes and was about to get up when J toddled over, grabbed the blanket off the floor and gently replaced it on L's lap being careful not to cover her face. He said sweetly, "Ok Baby, sleep sleep" and then he turned on the swing and switched on the music button and tried his best to hum along to the lullaby.

I cherish every second of every day these days since I know these sweet and gentle times will pass so quickly. I am so blessed.

Tomorrow's the big day!

I had my 39 week appointment today. I had an ultrasound last week because the Dr was worried about baby's size. The ultrasound report came back with good results and show the baby has grown well and is within the normal range. At my appointment today everything is normal: bp, baby's heartrate and my weight gain but when he measured my belly I am still at 36cms! He did not like that there was no still apparent growth in the last 6 weeks - I am concerned about this too...

Then, he did an internal and said I am still at 2cms my cervix is ripe and baby hasn't moved down any further from last week...he or she is just waiting there for who knows what to happen. So, because he is concerned about growth...he said the u/s was good but it doesn't tell us much about how and when baby is growing... and since I am only a couple of days away from my due date he wants to induce to get things started since he seems to think my body is ready and just needs a bit of a push.

So, tomorrow morning at 7:30 he wants to start with gel on the cervix and see how things go from there. I am excited to know that tomorrow's the big day and it's nice to be able to make arrangments for J without being in the midst of labour. B is excited that we are not in limbo waiting on baby. I am very nervous about being induced. I hope and pray all goes smoothly, quickly and that baby #2 arrives safe and healthy!

Wish us luck

House for sale and 7 days to go....

Last Tuesday we got another call from the relocation specialist. She chewed us out for not having listed our house yet! With a baby on the way and so much to do around the house to get it ready to seel I just wanted to slap her! Can't she understand we are really trying here??? But, we also realize that houses are harder to sell in the winter. Especially when you live in a region of the country that gets dumped with tonnes of snow. So, we finally got a call into our realtor and listed the house on Wednesday. Since then we have been running around like fools cleaning and clearing out our junk. It feels good to get it done. I just hope this house sells FAST!

I also wish that we could get our new furnace installed sometime soon. Yep, they finally told us we need to replace the whole darn thing, which in itself is fine with us but clearly it seems too much to ask that something related to our furnace fiasco would go smoothly. The furnace was ordered a week and a half ago and it should have arrived early last week -it didn't. The whole week went by without a word from the oil company so we have no idea what's going on. We are keeping our fingers crossed that it's there now and they will come in Monday or Tuesday this week and put it in....please wish us luck with that :)

So now we wait...we wait to sell our house, we wait for a new furnace get finally get installed and we wait for baby #2 to arrive. Yes! Only 7 days to go to our expected due date for this little one! I hope he or she decides to arrive sooner rather than later...I am getting quite impatient with tardiness these days - LOL!

I cannot believe this...

B just got off the phone with a representative from the relocation department for his work. Apparently the transfer orders are all signed and everyone who needs to do something with regard to our big move has been notified including the realtor advisors/relocators.

So, B provides all the information required to the representative. She tells him we can put our house on the market today if we want. Ummm, NO! He explains that we are planning to postpone putting it up for sale at least until the end of October since our new baby is due in about 3 weeks...Guess what? We're not allowed to delay it that long. Once they get things started, which they have, we have to list it as soon as they send their appraisers out, and this will happen in the next week or so. Nice!?!

Today, I am two days shy of 37weeks pregnant and this is very unwelcome news. And now it's too late to ask for a deferral because the wheels are already in motion. We thought we'd made it very clear that we could not get things started until early November...I guess no one there cares about that! Nice!?!

Fall is here!

It struck me hard today as I walked through the grocery store how much I love fall. It is my favorite season of all. The brilliant orange pumpkins, the pretty fall flowers and all the spectacularly colourful and delicious veggies that are in season really made me feel warm and fuzzy inside.

Later in the afternoon as I walked around the yard with my curious little boy I marveled at how quickly the leaves on the trees have gone from lush green to yellow, orange, red and how the grass beneath my feet is now suddenly brown. The snap in the brisk fall air is my most favorite feel and smell...especially on very cool days when you can catch a whif of logs burning in someone's fireplace. I imagine the warmth on my face from the roaring fire.

Fall is when I most love to go on long nature walks. It's so calming to listen to the leaves crunch underfoot and breathe in the freshness of the air as deeply as I can. I couldn't help but think it is very bittersweet since the beautiful fall weather that filled me up inside also made me realize how much I miss my beloved dog...

M, I hope you are rolling in a great big pile of leaves in doggie heaven. xox

I just can't quit.

I deleted my blog a few days ago but have since decided to start it up again. I am a little sad that I lost all my entries from before...ah well, that's life.
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30 days left and counting....

I am doing well still. Up until just the last few days I found the time was flying by with this pregnancy but now it is starting to slow down. I guess that's what happens when you get near the end and are ready.

Yep, I am ready...bags are packed, baby gear is clean and ready for use, freezer is full of yummy meals. B goes off work using his vacation time as of Oct 1st! I can't wait to have him around full time to help with J, although part of me wonders if being less busy chasing after J will make time feel like it's dragging even more. B's definitely not worried about this though, he's convinced this baby will arrive early - his prediction is Oct 6th, which is the night of the full moon. J was born almost 3 weeks early on the night of a full moon. Only time will tell :)